I have been, as my friend Kristin says "falling down a well of self pity" But no more. I am gonna fight this make more of my life. So what that I have lost my hearing. Our two oldest dogs are deaf too & it doesn't slow them down much. I'm gonna learn from them. No more being "numb" & having self despair. I am truly sorry to those of you that I have complained to. No, life isn't perfect for anybody & we all must climb our own mountains. What's your mountain to climb? I'll climb it with you.